Alone Time? What's that?

I'm feeling really crowded, almost trapped lately. I feel like I always doing something for someone else or something that has to be done but isn't really fun, like the PT exercises, or sleep.  Of course I love my guys, and I'm glad to be their mother or wife, and I wouldn't want any of them to read this and feel guilty, I know I freely signed up for everything I'm doing, but I'm a little overwhelmed with things right now.  October seems to be a really busy month with lots of things to take care of.  So I find myself up at 2am, the only time I feel free to get on the computer and just answer my email or play. And then Mark tortures me about staying up late.  Like it's a character flaw or something.  He firmly believes that I should go to bed at a "decent" hour and get up earlier.  But morning time is no good for me.  The first hour or 2 hours after I get up (no matter what time of day that is or how much or how little sleep I've had) are just not pleasant or mentally useful hours for me.  So why would I get up and waste my precious alone hours during that?  I'd rather sleep late and get up just in time to waste that period of time doing the regular maintenance things (getting dressed, scooping the cat box, etc) or pretending to be alert while supervising Thomas doing school?  (At his age, it's not like I have to be enough on the ball to actually teach anything.) On the other hand, I'm staying up until 3am on days when I have to get back up by 8am and go somewhere, and I'm finding that, unlike when I was 20, I can no longer go forever on 4 or 5 hours of sleep. 

How to live

I cribbed this from www.infidels.org  , but think they're good rules for everyone:

* There is more to moral behavior than mindlessly following rules.
* Be especially skeptical of positive claims.
* If you want your life to have some sort of meaning, it's up to you to find it.
* Search for what is true, even if it makes you uncomfortable.
* Make the most of your life, as it's probably the only one you'll have.
* It's no good relying on some external power to change you; you must change yourself.
* Just because something's popular doesn't mean it's good.
* Assume nothing
* Don't believe things just because you want them to be true.

and finally (and most importantly):

* All beliefs should be open to question.

Einstein, God, and the Universe

"God does not play dice with the universe"  Albert Einstein
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"I believe in Spinoza's God who reveals himself in the orderly harmony of what exists, not in a God who concerns himself with fates and actions of human beings."   Albert Einstein.
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